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Saturday, November 8, 2008

WTF?!

(If u think listening to all mie nonsense is irritating, jux leave.Nobody can stop u)wtf is tis, huh?!I can't believe it!!(they=mie parents)they dun even noe how i feel in the 1st place..y cant dhey jux try to noe me more?Scold me for every little thing i do?WHEN MOST OF DHE TIMES WHAD I DID WAS NOT WRONG?!(which i confess a minority is mie fault, and i knew it was mie fault)They dunno whad happened in school, or even worse, dun BOTHER to noe or ask bout me being in school..Do they even noe how I feel?Mie hart has broken into dust..thr's no more hart in me nw, I will die at any moment.
I got slap in school..on the face right near to mie ear.And hit lyk crazy..(Well, I won't sae hu lest dhe person comes and hit me agn)Its a painful experience which I have to bottle my feelings up.Every single time I cry, I think of the past...Now, I'm sensitive to every little thing..Jux a little thing would make me cry.I dunno y and I DUN wan to become lyk tis..but, can I?
Look at this conversation between me and my father.
Father:"I dun wan to see u and ur bro quarrel anymore..If not, I would cane both of you"
Me:"But, I did nth wrong!"
Father:"Whether or not u do smth wrong, i will cane both of u!"
WHAD SHYT IS TIS?! U TELL ME!There is NO justice at all in this world..I want justice!!!ITS LYK SO DAMN UNFAIR..I DID NTH WRONG AND DESERVE SUCH PUNISHMENT?!WTF!!
Haiz..telling u all this doesn't work anyways..Coz, u're nt the one feeling all these... ... You won't feel the troubles and misery I have been containing since I was born.MIE HART IS ALREADI FILLED OF TROUBLES, AND NOW, IT IS GOING TO EXPLODE!!
I HATE THE WORLD..And I feel lyk commiting suicide sometimes, BUT, I thought of the future, I still want to be a business women selling cookies in the future..It's still a long way ahead to acheive dhat... Or perharps I can't hang on any longer.
Have u ever got slap by ur FRIEND b4?
No.
BUT I GOT.I DID NTH WRONG, ABSOLUTELY NTH WRONG.
AND Y DID I GT DHAT?!At dhat time, my world fall apart but I had to stay calm coz we were at the quadrangle and everyone is at thr..Can I make a fuss?More ppl are close to HER than me..They wld help her.*favourtism agn..haiz* I jux ran all the way up and stood there crying..As I knew dhat we were all going to line up, I quickly wiped off mie tears and ran to dhe quadrangle trying VERY HARD not to cry..I had to bottle everything up..
Let me ask u.
Do u always whisper to someone in front of another person(e.g.me)?
Yes, u do.
Except some.
Well, put urself in dhe 'another person'(e.g.me)shoes, think wad would we feel.
You, of course, will think that both of you are talking about me.(Of course negative things, if not why can't I noe?)
You all always claim dhat u're not talking about me, then, why can't I noe?
Issit becos I'm a blabbler mouth and scared dhat I would tell ppl?
Hmm..If it is, then tell me.With u not telling me anyth, and nt giving me any clues, I would feel so stupid, standing thr, see-ing u all whispering..
I feel so hurt.Wouldn't u?
Well, dhat's the end of mie post.(Go and reflect.)
If u think I'm talking shyt.Well, in the 1st place, why have u read the post?

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